There are some moments in life when you feel like you’ve got nothing remaining in life to live for.
Like you’ve got nothing.
Like you’ve lost everything. Your mind, your sanity and your individuality.
Like you’re a waste of space.
I know, it happens. I know it because it happened me too, not too long ago.
I felt suffocated. My life had gone haywire. Family, friends, relationship, every single thing. And all I could do was sit and watch as they went wrong.
I couldn’t do anything about it either, because I was too busy pitying myself.
We all do that, don’t we? We sit in a corner, curl up and cry. All we think is:
“Why me? What did I do to deserve this?”
Sometimes it is our fault, but sometimes it isn’t. Sometimes, it just happens. Without our knowledge. But it happens anyway. Because that’s the way life is- unfair.
Somewhere, I realized that self- pity is not the answer to the problem. Crying is not the solution to problems either.
So, after the much- needed breakdown, I went into my room, switched on my iPod, and listened to my favorite singer- Vishal Dadlani. His voice never ceases to amaze me. An hour after his music calmed me enough, I switched on my laptop and started to type out how I felt, putting my feelings in writing, but not before having a long and funny conversation with my best friend, who’s always been there for me.
I know that I’m not the only one who feels that way from time to time. There are millions of other people who feel like they’re good-for-nothing and useless.
I’m telling you, you are not useless. It’s been said that every being is born for a purpose. So when life throws you lemons and you suck on them accidentally, all you can do is get over their sourness. And remember, get over it by sorting out your thoughts. Drugs and alcohol are not the way. Believe me. They are NOT the way to get over depression or stress of any kind. But yeah, introspection helps.
I’m not trying to sound like a mother hen or an agony aunt here. I’m not a self- help book author either, I’m just a regular teenager. I’m just telling you what did and didn’t work out for me. Also, this article is not to give you “Gyaan” about what to do and what not to do. If you feel that you’re a person who can connect to this 17- year old girl, then you should probably do the same thing I did. Listen to some good music, read a good book (chick-lit does NOT help. Neither does supernatural romance. It’s all the more depressing, according to me. But to each their own), or pop in a DVD of your favorite movie and settle back on your couch with a bowl of popcorn to enjoy it. You could call a couple of friends home for a sleepover too. These are the list of things I would do.
Just remember- when life shatters, pick up the pieces. Start where you left off, unless it’s an old flame trying to get back with you (because that could get worse), and finish what you’re doing. Don’t leave the pieces there, they might prick you later.
Also remember that somewhere, miles away from you, is another girl who has gotten through a lot in life by doing whatever has been written in this article.
A girl who sits by her window and hopes that no one is going to make the mistakes she made. And a girl who hopes that this small piece of writing has helped at least one person lead a better life.
Article by: Supriya Rao